Sunday, November 21, 2010

It's Monday and time to answer more of your questions.

Here are a few more of the questions that were sent to me after my post about Trig Palin on Wednesday.

1) Why do you think Bristol lived with her aunt?

Bristol did not want to move to Juneau because she wanted to continue her relationship with Levi. They wanted to remain close enough to still see each other. I believe this is during the time that Todd allegedly offered Bristol a new car as a bribe to get her to end her relationship with my brother.

2) Does Levi KNOW he is the father? Do you think there is any chance he isn’t and is just being paid to pretend?

Let me put it this way. If there was any doubt then Levi would have had a paternity test done, and despite theories to the contrary there is no way he would accept money to pretend to be some innocent child's father.

That is a very disgusting thing to even consider. If Tripp were not Levi's son it would break my heart, and I don't know if I could ever get over that. But I believe with all of my heart that Tripp is a Johnston.  And Levi is a proud father to his little boy, who by the way looks identical to how he looked when he was Tripp's age.

3) Again. for the umpteenth time in two years I have been asking this question…WHY DOES LEVI HAVE A HOSPITAL BRACELET ON in the pictures with Trig? I am smelling BS and I am NEVER wrong.

Well I have to admit that  I had never seen this picture before, and at first was just as confused as many of you.  However the other day Levi happened to call and I was able to ask him about it.  He identified it as a picture of him with Tripp at the hospital.  I don't know why people believed it was Trig, but it's not.

4) You said on Larry King Live that Levi once went an entire summer not speaking to you because Bristol told him so. You have stated that Levi lived with the Palins. When did all this happen? It couldn’t have been the Summer of 2008 before the election. Was it 2007? And if so why was Levi living with the Palins in 2007? Do you want us to believe that Levi would tell you everything when he went a whole summer not talking to you because somebody told him to? Your appear to be truthful but I think you are leaving out quite a bit. Why?

I would like to make this clear. I know I have laid all this out before but I will explain it again because there still seem to be questions.

It was before the election. Bristol started demanding that Levi end all contact with me in the summer of 2008 at the beginning of her pregnancy.

Because of the campaign Bristol had to put on a happy face and play nice, so during THAT time Levi was again allowed to talk to me. I guess she realize I would speak out and ruin the "perfect image". Or at least that's how I perceived it because the change in her attitude towards me came out of nowhere. It was a like the difference between night and day.

Levi lived with the Palins at the end of Bristol's pregnancy in 2008, and moved out shortly after Tripp's birth because of the constant fighting between he and Bristol, and other personal issues.

That's when the real hell started for our family. But never in my wildest dreams did I think it would become this bad.

5) What do you think accounts for the difference in size between the Trig that is shown being held by the Heaths in the hospital corridor and the Trig that you are holding in the Palin house two weeks later?

I can not give an answer for that. It might possibly have something to do with camera angles. Or maybe there really is something going on about which I am still completely in the dark.

6) So, why is Levi not seeing his son anymore? Bristol is in LA, and I hear moving to Arizona, and yet, doesn’t Levi have custody time each week?
Does he not care? Maybe the baby isn’t his after all?

I didn't know Bristol was moving to Arizona, and that's very hurtful to hear. We've already missed so much of his life while only living a few miles apart, if he really does move thousands of miles away there will be little hope that we will see very much of him at all anymore.

As you know"Team Levi" does not talk to me about the legal side of things. (Even going so far as to announce in the paper that I "won’t be privy to information from anyone with Team Levi.” And Levi is not allowed to fill me in either, so all that I know about the legal agreement is what I read on the internet. Obviously Levi does not have much control over what happens with Tripp as everybody can determine by how rarely he sees his son these days.

I do know that Levi loves his little boy very much, and I cannot imagine how, or why, he allowed his lawyers to mess things up so badly for him.

Friday, November 19, 2010

You asked the questions, so let me try to answer them

I felt that the Trig controversy was a very important topic and one that would result in much debate, so I wanted to go back and read through the comments and answer some of your questions. Like you I feel strongly about this subject too and I promise that I am telling all I know to the best of my ability. I wish I could answer every question so completely that there would no longer be any confusion, but unfortunately I cannot.

If only I could go back in time and pay attention to every detail of what happened. Perhaps then I might be able to answer everybody's questions. But obviously that is not a option.

So here are the questions and my responses.

1) Respectfully, what’s with the photo where Levi is holding a baby and there is another baby’s arm cut out of the photo?

That photo is a picture I took of my brother holding his son with our young cousin on his lap. I cropped out our cousin because I did not have permission to post a picture of her online.

2) I don’t doubt your story of what you think you know. but it does seem curious to me that these well documented events don’t make you think twice about Trig being Sarah's biological son.

I'll admit that there have been many times when I have had my doubts. It is simply a fact that I just cannot fathom someone being evil and narcissistic enough to fake a pregnancy. Plus I was around during that time, and heard first hand Bristol saying that they thought their mom was pregnant, which she at first denied, and then admitted. And after seeing Bristol so furious with her mom for hiding it, well that led me to believe that it was legit. But yes I still do have my doubts, and if I were Sarah I would just release some proof to end all of this speculation. If it were me that would seem like a no-brainer.

3) I am shocked that you guys have been so trashed by the Palins and that Bristol continues to take shots just like this week on DWTS about her being a golden girl and never problems until she was with Levi…..why is he not going to court about her talking negatively about him? The judge said that was not supposed to happen, right?

First off, don't be shocked because they will continue to do this to everybody they can, especially us. But yes, that comment about Levi really set me off!

You are right, that was part of the agreement that no parties should talk badly about each other, And if they did, from my understanding, they wouldn't be able to spend time with Tripp, yet what has she been doing this whole time? Bashing not only me all over Facebook, but bashing Levi at every possible opportunity she can get. She has done it on Facebook, in almost every interview, and even on DWTS. Just imagine what she says behind closed doors IN FRONT of Tripp!

My biggest fear is that Tripp will grow up despising his father's side of the family all because of how vindictive and cruel the Palins are toward us. I can only imagine the hateful and untrue things being said to, and in front of, young Tripp.

I have had her friends tell me to my face that she slams my whole family in front of my nephew. I find that completely unacceptable! She has no right to say those things in front of an impressionable child.

Yet the Palins get away with it. Why don't the Palins ever seem to have to face consequences for their actions? I thought the law is the law, and everyone is equal. But I guess that isn't the case if your last name is Palin.

For my part I have repeatedly reached out to Bristol and attempted to rebuild our relationship for the sake of Tripp, but she just completely dismisses my offers using harsh and insulting language.

Tripp doesn't deserve that. He deserves to know us and experience our family for himself without anybody poisoning his mind against us. I just know if he got that chance my nephew would love me unconditionally regardless of how hard Bristol has tried to turn him against me and my other family members.

Bristol claiming that she was the golden child before she met Levi is a whole other story. If Bristol wants the world to think that, well I could easily prove just the opposite, and I seriously doubt that she wants that. This isn't a threat, but I do have many potentially embarrassing things saved as well as some photos and videos which prove that she was no "golden child", before or after, Levi.

I do not want to play dirty, nor do I want to fight or say bad things about the mother of my nephew. But I have tried the nice route, and practically begged, but still got nothing but thrown under the Palin bus when all I wanted was to see Tripp, or even just receive a recent photo so that I can see how he is changing as he begins to grow up. Many members of my family have never even met him and I know his great grandmother would love to see a picture of him, especially since she is in such poor health.

But it's really hard to keep being nice when, no matter how hard I try, I get nowhere. Bristol saw me cry my eyes out during the deposition (all while she was laughing and rolling her eyes) because I was missing my nephew so very much. And yet she remained unmoved.

I now realize that there is nothing else I can do to prove my commitment to seeing Tripp. There will always be something I am not doing right, or something that she finds fault with, that will give her the excuse she needs to deny our family access to my brother's son. . She has consistently used him as a pawn against us since the day he was born.

And you know people may not be aware of this, but Levi was a great boyfriend to her. I often helped him pick out diamonds, flowers, Teddy bears, chocolates, and more cards than I can remember, even during the times when she was treating him like dirt. Bristol even went to prom with another guy while in a steady relationship with Levi during her freshman year. And yet he forgave her and kept trying to make it work. She is just like her mother, and has to have somebody to blame,for everything!

4) And what is your take on the Junior High crap that she and her sister got into with some guys on Facebook…..I am hoping you write this story ….you have nothing to lose….that you haven’t already lost……?

That kind of attitude and language is not unusual for either Bristol or Willow. This is just the first time they've been caught.

Bristol just loves to bash, belittle, or talk crap about people, and brag about her success all over her Facebook.

The small sampling I posted on my blog was just a sliver of the real Bristol talking. The Palin girl's true colors were revealed in that Facebook debacle for all of the world to see.

Last week Bristol even went so far as to tell some girl to "...suck di**..." and said"...I'll make more money tonight then you will this whole year..." the rest of the comments are too racy to post here. When I went back to her Facebook page later to save the comments (just in case) she had already erased them and retyped them, making them sound innocent and reasonable. But everybody that was involved in that Facebook argument, which was similar to the one posted on TMZ, saw the true Bristol before she had the chance to erase and retype her side of the exchange. She definitely lost a few hometown fans from that. (By the way if anybody involved in that petty FB fight happened to save Bristol's comments before she erased and moderated them could you please send them to me. I want the world to see her for who she truly is. Just click the "Contact me" link at the top of this page.)

5) Btw do you think Bristol is pregnant or just putting on a lot of weight? Is she still seeing Ben Barber and having sex with him? And what about that text from him asking if she is pregnant to which she just replied "no" ?

I personally do not think Bristol is pregnant, but there has been quite a lot of talk about that possibility on the internet. About her personal relationship with Barber, I don't want to answer any questions about that, I feel that is a little too much information to share. But I will say that if he had to ask, there's a reason why. People don't ask a virgin/abstinence spokesperson if she's pregnant, if you know what I mean.

6) Sarah has claimed many times in interviews that she “barely knew” Levi when he and Bristol announced they were pregnant (which, btw, was much later than the time of Trig’s birth). If that is true, that she barely knew him, why the heck was he there in the wee hours of the morning for the birth of Trig?

Ha-ha, these type of statements make me laugh. It is very similar to Bristol telling people her mom has only met me once, when in reality we've met countless times. We went to a concert together, even riding in the same car together, and obviously my mom and I went to the Palin home when those infamous "Triggybear" photos were taken. There were many other run ins as well, especially throughout all the years the boys played hockey.

Now for her to say she barely knew Levi, that is just absurd. She pretended like they were best friends when she needed him to help her create the perfect family image at the convention and in public. They spent plenty of time together and had a fairly decent relationship for much of that time.

Levi was at the hospital because it was an emotional event, his girlfriend was meeting her new baby brother for the first time, and she wanted him to be a part of that special, life changing moment.

Sarah needs to start writing her stories down because she seems to keep forgetting what she has said in the past.

7) WHY do you think your pictures were scrubbed of your computer?

I have absolutely no idea why anyone would want to steal my precious irreplaceable photos. The only logical thing my family can think of is that the Secret Service took them. Other than that we have no answers.

Honestly we to have more questions than answers about that. Every repair guy who looked at the computer said there was not a single bit of information left. To them it appeared that nobody had ever put anything at all on our computers and they said that only somebody VERY skilled could have done such a thorough job.

Okay that is all of the questions I can get to today. I will come back and answer more questions later this weekend or at the beginning of the next week.

Have a nice weekend!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

What I know about the birth of Trig Palin

This post has taken an exceptionally long time to write because I keep erasing and rewriting it in order to make sure it is nothing short of perfection, and that it leaves no significant questions unanswered.

But after many days, and even weeks, I have come to realize that no matter how well written, or how sincere and honest, the post is there will always be doubts and questions. Therefore I have decided to simply tell all that I know, and all that I have seen with my own eyes.

It wasn’t until I read it on IM that I came to realize that there were people even speculating that Trig was not Sarah’s real son, and alleging that she lied about his birth. Some even saying that perhaps there was a third child involved.

To be completely honest I looked at that conspiracy theory like they were all crazy. Of course I would never lie about anything, period, Especially not about an innocent young child.

I really do not know where to start with this post so I guess I will start from the very beginning.

I vividly remember hearing Bristol say that she and her family were suspicious that their mother might be pregnant because she was wearing loose clothing, acting different, and being distant. It was not much later that I recalled Bristol acting very hostile and having no idea what was going on.

Eventually I found out that there was turmoil within the family because Sarah had just admitted she was pregnant with a baby boy to her family and that the next day she would announce it publicly.

It appeared to me that the Palin family were offended and hurt that Sarah lied and hid her pregnancy from her own children. It wasn’t much later that I overheard that Sarah flew back from Texas while she was in labor to Alaska to give birth to her son Trig. It seemed that it was very important to her that she gave birth to her baby in “her great state of Alaska”.

Days later we were invited to the Palins house in early May (Levi’s birthday) to meet the sweet newborn baby Trig.

I was anxious to meet Trig for a number of reasons. The first being that I knew I had a niece or nephew on the way soon and I wanted to be around babies to get an idea of how it would feel to be an aunt. I hadn’t had much baby experience at that point.

I was also very excited to meet Trig because I was convinced that my brother and Bristol were going to get married and start a family pretty soon so I considered the Palins a part of the family already.

I am a very welcoming person and allow people into my life easily. I guess I just got my hopes up a little too soon.

Because of my open heart and eagerness to bring our families together at that time, Bristol and I were as close as we ever were, and I was even calling her my “sissy in-law”. Which, by the way, was even her name as it appeared on my phone. I really thought things were going to work out.

I was so full of joy that day when I walked into the Palin home that when they handed me Trig I just held him in my arms and melted. He was just the most beautiful, tiniest little guy and I instantly fell in love with him.

How can you not? After all, at the time I was in a serious relationship with a man who had a younger brother with Down syndrome so I already had a soft spot for children with special needs.

People often ask why I took photos. Well, why wouldn’t I ?

At the time I considered the Palins family, and I thought that Trig would soon be my brother in-law. I take family seriously and I keep my camera with me at all times. I also scrap book, and I love to take pictures so that friends and family can see themselves when they’re older and look back at all of the great memories that we shared.

I guess because I do not have many photos of myself as a young child I wanted to make sure that my nephew and Trig (Who I once thought would be a big part of my life) would have that special treat and we could always look at the pictures together and I would have the opportunity to share those memories with them. It was something that I sorely missed in my life.

The captions I put on the MySpace photos may have seemed a bit “weird”, or “suspicious”, or even “odd” but the truth is that I was only a teenager who thought this adorable child was going to become family and I was in awe of him. As weird as it may sound I always give out nicknames, it is just something I have always done, and for some reason I always put “bear” at the end of loved ones names. I probably picked it up from my mother and Father who have always called me Sadie-Bug.

I have always referred to my brother as “Ishy-Bear”, Trig was “Triggy-Bear”, and Tripp “Trippy-Bear”. It is just ME and it is just what I do. Weird or not, there is no story or hinting behind it, it’s just a nickname.

As for “Mommy In law”, well that was just a simple mistake. What I meant was that Sarah would soon be Levi’s Mother-in-Law.

Had I known that my personal MySpace would be invaded by millions of curious people I would have definitely made changes in my whole profile, but as an unsuspecting teenager that isn’t something you expect to happen OVER NIGHT. I was just the average teen from Alaska bragging about my adorable “family”. Simple as that.
People get heated about this topic and I have never understood why. Everyone has their own theory but this is all I know, and I am sorry if this isn’t what you want to hear, but it is the truth as I know it.

As far as I am aware Sarah did not fake her pregnancy and I do not know why she would.

In those photos I agree she looks lean but that is how she has always looked to me.

People pick every detail about her apart claiming her legs are too skinny and she is wearing a baggy sweatshirt indicating that it’s something suspicious. Well then explain why she is basically wearing the same outfit in her new reality show while she is lounging around her home saying “Noooo boys go upstairs” (Maybe that is just her comfortable clothing, I know I wear sweatshirts while lounging around my house).

Truth is I cannot give you all the answers but I am trying my best. You cannot see her stomach through that sweatshirt so nobody really knows. Many people I know have had children and their legs stay slim.

I am not saying Sarah isn’t hiding anything, or that I am sticking up for her, but I am just giving my opinion. After all that she and her family has done to us I hope you all believe that if I knew something I would be the first to say so but that isn’t the case.

I did not even ever consider she would fake her pregnancy until I started reading reports and blogs. Even then I didn’t believe it.

I’ve seen and read it all. The ear theory, fake pregnancy suit, adoption, switching out babies, and all I can say is that I never saw any evidence that supports any of that. I also never noticed anything wrong, different, or odd about Trigs ears when I saw him.

If indeed they did fake the pregnancy, adopt, or switch a baby, well then that makes her the most evil and manipulative women I have ever come across. But right now I still have no good reason to doubt that Sarah is the biological mother of Trig.

However, I do question why she has NEVER provided any proof to put the rumors to rest. I realize she is not obligated to do so, but why not shut everybody up? And then recently I heard that she gave the wrong location for his birth. How could she forget that he was born in Wasilla?

There are many unanswered questions, and I am sorry I cannot answer all of them for you. Believe me, I wish I could. It never occurred to me that there would ever be this level of speculation or I would have paid a lot more attention back then.

After the infamous TriggyBear photos were taken Bristol and Levi had taken Trig to my mother’s home a few times and my mom never noticed anything different or odd about Trig. He was just a joyful baby boy who looked exactly the same everytime she saw him. She never noticed a difference in his appearance whatsoever.

I do know that there is no way that Trig is Bristol’s son. Bristol was with my brother during that whole time and Levi would never hide something like that from me.

I was also around Bristol once in awhile at that time and she did not have a baby belly whatsoever.

There is NO WAY that Trig is Bristol’s son. To my knowledge she has had one beautiful son, and that is my precious nephew Tripp Johnston.